my boyfriend and i have been together for about 3 years, in that time i can only remember one occasion that he gave me amazing oral sex, despite the fact that i regularly give him blow jobs and put a lot of effort into doing it how he likes. he will sometimes go down there and give my clitoris a quick lick, and then spit on his fingers using them to simulate oral sex rather than actually doing it.
i try to communicate what i like and ask him to do it and he either ignores me or says no.
when i have bought this point up with him his reasons have been that i’m not slim enough for him to enjoy doing it to me (i’m uk size 16, not huge!) and that he wants to hold something back either because i wont let him have anal sex with me or that i wont allow him to sleep with other women. he also said that oral on me is something to be saved for special occasions (but that never happens and oral on him is wanted as often as i can possibly manage)
its such a frustrating problem as when i talk to him he takes it as criticism and becomes defensive and its not something i’m comfortable talking to a friend about, i feel totally trapped. i have difficulty reaching orgasm and oral is one way that works for me, no other sexual partners have ever had a problem going down on me, i’m clean and i’m sure there’s nothing wrong with the way i smell or taste (although i’m beginning to think my partner must dislike it)
the normal sex is fine, but i’m finding it hard to deal with what seems to me as double standards and selfishness in bed, i know he can perform oral well because he’s done it before, what do i do? please help…………….